It wasn't until I was about 27 that I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). These are the symptoms from the NHS website:-
- emotional instability – the psychological term for this is "affective dysregulation" (my husband calls this sudden mood swings)
- disturbed patterns of thinking or perception – ("cognitive distortions" or "perceptual distortions") (mainly paranoid thoughts)
- impulsive behaviour (overdoses, self harm and climbing on a tank once, a military one (sorry))
- intense but unstable relationships with others (been married 3 times)
There's a lot more info out there now, when I was diagnosed all I had from my community psychiatric nurse (CPN) was a badly photocopied leaflet with a very scary face on the front (like something out of a horror movie).
For me, the main problem with BPD is that "I CAN'T RELY ON ME". I never know what the day is gonna bring. It can start out great (I tend to wake up happy) then come crashing down around me because of some seemingly insignificant event (insignificant to others anyhow, quite significant to me).
My Ballpoint pen drawing - eyes are the window to the soul. I love drawing eyes, weirdly though, I can't make eye contact in real life. |
I've also got ADHD (inattentive type) but I'll write about that in another post :-)
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